Day 24: What challenge are you grateful for? I’m grateful for the challenge of not having everything follow the timeline I set for myself. I’ve learned that having your timeline not follow the “timeline” doesn’t mean you aren’t accomplishing things, it’s just proof that there’s a bigger plan for you than the one you’ve set forth for yourself.
So, with that said the control freak that I can be at times – especially when it comes to my personal life and accomplishments – meant that I had everything planned out after I turned 18. I was going to go to community college for 2 years (turned out to be more like 3), I would then transfer to a 4 year college – which I did, and I would be done in 2 additional years (that actually took me like 3 1/2). So, it basically took me almost 6 years to graduate from college. Deterring from my 4 year college plan…oops.
But, I learned that I needed to be flexible with my goals so I said, as long as I was graduated before I turned 25 I would be happy – mission accomplished. So, while some things weren’t falling into my stringent plan, I made adjustments and was able to be more realistic. So, when I got my first “adult” job literally two weeks after graduation, I was like sweet we are back on track.
I had only planned to be there for 1 year, and that went by in the blink of an eye and so did the second year as well. I always knew that I would go to graduate school, so when it didn’t seem like I would be leaving that job anytime soon, I decided I needed to make myself more marketable so I started graduate school. I was about a year into grad school when I scored the job at PG&E (where I’ve been ever since). This was definitely on my goal list – not necessarily as specific as PG&E, but definitely a large-scale company where I could grow and move around.
On a personal level I always thought I’d be married and with kids by the time I was 25. Wow, am I GLAD that didn’t happen. I truly didn’t know who I was at 25, but ironically enough it was the year that I had my first serious relationship begin and last about 5 years – and eventually end. Had I been married I most definitely would be divorced right now – a great example of having a plan not work out, and for the better.
Here I am, 33 and still unmarried and without any kids (minus my fur baby), but I’m also OK with that as well. I didn’t used to be, but I had to remind myself that I can’t make the plan happen. There’s something bigger out there for me. I am grateful that I took care of school and established a solid career. Those were all things I wanted to have established before I began the other part of my life – i.e. the husband/kid thing. But now, interestingly enough because I don’t have those responsibilities yet I can do fun things like travel and continue to help out family and spoil my nieces.
It’s all in how you look at. I realize that my life hasn’t followed my plan exactly how I mapped it, but I wouldn’t be my unique self with my unique life if it had followed my plans. So for now, “Trust the wait. Embrace the uncertainty. Enjoy the beauty of becoming. When nothing is certain, anything is possible.”